Friday, November 6

i am glad that a closed door leads to another opened door. but i am afraid that i cannot handle the workload. i am already gonna be buried deep under schoolwork at the rate im digging up from my grave. and the offer now is not to just do supervisory work and administration, but also lotsa ideas and effort and time to start up from a scratch. At least there will be income, and when my schoolwork stabilize, i would be more than happy to be earning an extra allowance! but now it's scaring me. the mel in poly used to love challenges and faced it with excitement! where has that mel gone to.. sigh.

mel made a new friend today in class! quite unexpected cuz i thought that if i dont make friends during the first few lessons of each subj im just gonna bore myself through the year. blessing it must be!

ok im tired. and i need to read up a bit. i have one confirm test next week, and another tentative one. i hate the tentative shit thing! rarrr.