Monday, August 24

when im still awake at this ungodly hour, it would mostly be because of stress. work stress in particular. im suppose to have someone to share this burden with me. but i feel so alone. every fucking closing shift that i dont have people to do, i panic. i find people to cover. or worse comes to worse, i cover. when irresponsible persons last min tell me they cannot do their closing shifts, they can just fuck care and do whatever they like. since when can I fuck care and do whatever i like. oh yah, ever since i agreed to save the lives of young teenagers who need this part time job by taking this unknowingly huge responsibility on myself. sometimes i think i deserve the supervisor plus assistant supervisor's pay tgt for all the shit i have to do in a week. this is crazy. this job isnt doing good to me at all. lets just say "i'm absolutely pissed now" is just an understatement.